Dear Ziggy,
We’re near the finish line now. As early as 4 weeks from now, you can finally be brought out safely into this crazy world of ours and I can no longer contain my excitement. You have already brought so much joy into my life the minute I first found out I was pregnant with you. I know that having you finally in my arms will definitely bring me so much more pleasure and satisfaction.
Thank you for coming into my life. I have been wishing for another baby for so long. I’ve really been hoping for a baby boy this time around since I already have two girls, your older half-sisters, Zoe and Ziya, who have also been wishing for a baby brother. I’ve also been wanting to give your Dad a baby of his own since I know that he’s been waiting to have one for years. So, you see, your coming into our lives is a dream come true for all of us. You are a blessing, a true gift from God. I must have done something right to deserve a gift like you.
I know our life here is not perfect. We’ve had our share of ups and downs, challenges and problems. We cannot assure you of a life that will be void of these but I promise you that we will try our darnest to give you the life that you deserve, one that is full of love, hope, faith and infinite possibilities. I wish you the kind of life I never got to have while growing up. You see, my family life has always been kind of complicated. All I remember thinking was how to get away and that’s why for years, I tried so hard to do my own thing, yet not being able to really have the kind of life that I wanted. I’ve made my share of mistakes and even if I want so badly to erase them from my life I know that’s not possible. But I assure you that I have learned valuable lessons from everything that’s happened and that I’m hopeful they can only benefit you.
For the past few years, I’ve turned my life around. Despite the challenges in my life I never lost faith in God and hoped that someday I’ll be truly happy and I was right. Meeting your Dad changed my life forever. Like you, he is a blessing. When I met him I realized that anything is possible, that dreams really do come true and that it’s never too late to start again. He taught me acceptance – for the things that I can no longer change, things that I already have, and most importantly, acceptance of myself and of my life. He showed me what partnership actually meant, something I have always wanted but failed to really have for fear of being vulnerable, fear of getting hurt and fear of being called weak. For years I have always been the responsible and reliable one, to my family and to my friends, to the point that I would disregard what I need or want and it left me feeling used, abused and just helpless. Your Dad showed me that it’s okay not to be the strong one all the time and that it’s perfectly fine to be taken care of once in a while. For once in my life, there is finally someone I can love and feel comfortable and safe with – someone who keeps showing me what unconditional love is. With your Dad, my heart has found its rightful place in the world, its home. I finally know what love should be like. I can only wish that someday you’ll also know that kind of love.
Your dad has not only given me himself but also his family, who I am proud to say I am now part of. His family is just incredible, everything I’ve ever hoped to have. They embody the kind of family I hope that your Dad and I can give you too – a family just full of love, because you deserve that. For all these things I will forever be grateful to your Dad. I can only wish that you’ll grow up to be like him and that you’ll be proud to have him as your father. I know that he is already proud to have you as his son.
I can’t wait to finally meet you, Ziggy. I know we’re just going to have so much fun together. I look forward to all the moments of laughter and adventures, as well as the trials and challenges that I know we will have. Don’t worry because your Dad, sisters and I will always be here for you no matter what. For now, just sit tight and prepare yourself for our crazy but wonderful life. We love you.
Always,
Mommy
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Tawanna
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Thanks for following me, Tawanna! I’m now a follower of your blog too.
What a beautiful letter!!! Newest follower.
Best wishes,
Clay
http://tantrumstroublesandtreasures.blogspot.com/2011/01/is-it-ok-to-lie-to-my-kids.html
Thank you, Clay. I appreciate it. I’m following your blog now too. I really liked your most recent post. Will keep reading. 😀