Several days ago, I blogged about accepting a job offer. I am expected to start working next month. However, a week ago, I started having doubts whether I could push through with it at all.
I was in the middle of processing requirements when our househelp decided to go on vacation. It was supposed to be a 5-day vacation only but in the end, it turned out that she was just lying and actually didn’t plan on returning. I thought this whole time that the only dilemma I had was to find a nanny for Ziggy in order for me to be able to go to work. So, when our helper left, I was really mad and felt hopeless about the whole situation, knowing that it will be hard to find a suitable replacement. It took us months and months before to find one and I was afraid that the same thing will happen again. I was also irritated thinking that all those time, money and effort that I took in processing all the pre-employment requirements will go to waste.
I really thought that it may be a sign that God didn’t want me to go back to work yet when lo and behold, we found not just a helper but also a nanny all in one day, yesterday! Oh, you can’t believe how grateful we are to the person who referred us to them. I just hope that both of them will stay with us for a long time because I’d be forced to stay home even if just one of them decides to leave. So, we’re crossing our fingers.
I guess it’s really just meant to be that I go back to work already. I am still trying to get used to that knowing that I will be leaving Ziggy home. It still makes me feel sad. I hope I get better in time.
I think, once you get in the swing of things in the office, you’ll start to like it OK. I bet you’ll adjust quicker than you think!