Regular followers of my blog would know that I very recently just started on a new job. To be specific, I started last December 1 and so I’ve had two days of work so far. Today would be my third. Part of me is excited because I’ll be learning a lot of new things and I’ve actually met some nice colleagues already. However, the mommy part of me is still very anxious. I hate having to leave my kids, especially Ziggy because he’s only 9 months old and this is the first time that I’m working full time since he was born.
The fact that we’ve been having nanny and housekeeper problems over the past several weeks makes things worse. Although I am relieved to have found a new nanny (so that I can continue working), I am very anxious about leaving Ziggy with her because I’ve only trained her for a couple of days. I am not yet confident in her capabilities. Although my mother-in-law will supervise her while I am at work, I am still worried. Of course, I would prefer if I was the one supervising her because I’d be seeing everything she does with my own eyes. However, this is the reality of our situation and I have to accept that.
I already miss my kids. It will take a while to get used to not seeing them as often. My girls have to learn to be more independent in terms of doing their homework unsupervised as well as in preparing all the things they have to bring to school the next day. I hope they survive without me. I hope they don’t start feeling that I’ve abandoned them. Although my girls are pretty understanding and have been able to adjust to different situations, I have never been away from them this much.
I’m hoping and praying that I’ve made the right decision.
There is more than one way of taking care of your family, and not every way means you have to be physically there.
You’re taking care of your family by providing for them. You should never feel guilty about that.
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I can feel you mommy. *hugs! Time will tell, the kids will understand. Explanation and time to be with them for a day is heavenly.
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I do hope that you will feel better within the next few days Mommy Ice, I know how difficult it is to be away from your children most especially from your little one. I cannot imagine myself being in the same situation, but just remember just like evrything else, this too shall pass…
like what you said, this is at the same time a good training for your daughters to be independent..
goodluck on your career and regards to your family..
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Hang in there! Going back to work is never easy, but you will start to find your routine. I had my son in a very trusted home daycare and she closed not too long ago. I was devastated and the anxiety of placing him in a large daycare center really wore me out. He’s doing great though. I wish Nanny’s around here were more affordable. I would much rather have more control over my sons child care, but he is happy where he is now so I can’t complain too much. Big hugs! I hope the job is still going well.
i hope everything turns out all right, girl..
Belated Merry Christmas!