I’ve been feeling so down and out since this past weekend that I could barely function. You know that feeling you get when you think that things in your life are finally falling into place? You feel so blessed and thankful, like you’re on top of the world? I was feeling that way until Friday when I received news that sent my world on a tailspin once again.
The details of what happened is too personal to share. So, suffice it to say it has something to do with family. Something to do with family I already said goodbye to several years ago in an effort to regain my life and do something for me and my own family for a change. Unfortunately, there’s still one thing left to fix and it’s complicated. So complicated that I feel that there’s nothing I can do to fix it.
My anxiety has been affecting me so badly and I’ve decided to seek help. I’m still sane enough to know that I can’t handle this alone. Hubby has been so great and is doing everything that he can to uplift my spirits. Aside from him, the only things keeping me going right now are my responsibilities to my kids, the house and my work. So, I thank God for all these things.
But, I still need to feel better. I need to have the strength to fight – to fight the fear, the manipulation, the feeling of helplessness. I need to fight for me and for my family. And that’s why it was so fitting to have seen this message posted by a friend of mine on Instagram yesterday.
I really needed this. I need to hear this said to me over and over. I need to feel better. I need to not give up.
