Inspirations: On Believing (and Being In Between Clients)

About a month ago, I blogged about some WAHM lessons I’ve learned, specifically on how to value my time.

At that time, I was struggling about whether to let go of certain projects, which I felt were taking up too much of my time for very little pay (or none at all!). Eventually, I decided they weren’t worth my time and let them go.

Today marks the second day that I am totally, unquestionably client-less. That is, in terms of my freelance writing and virtual assistance gig.  For the first time in the last one year and nine months, I don’t have any income coming in every 15th and 30th of the month. And I am totally scared.

Why? Well, for one, there are BILLS to pay and I don’t want the hubby to shoulder all of it. I feel I also have a responsibility to contribute financially for our family. So, having no fixed income to expect is really nerve-wracking for me. There are days when I start to panic. But there are also days when I’m completely chill. It takes a whole lot of effort to remember that my ONE WORD for the year is ZEN.

But I still took the risk and quit those projects nonetheless, with the hope that God will provide. Yes, I have complete FAITH in Him. I BELIEVE. Thus, this inspirational quote:

JUST BREATHE. That is my current motto in life. Keep calm and be Zen. Not that I’m not doing anything to find new clients and projects. I am, of course. It’s just that, nothing has been finalized yet.

As it turns out though, God seems to be pointing me to another direction. For the past several weeks, I’ve been focusing a lot of effort into this blog and that gave me very positive results.

Yes, my blog stats have improved. I have been getting event invites left and right. But more than that, I’m being presented with new blog collaborations and partnerships with exciting brands (which you will be hearing about within the next several weeks). So, I’m not exactly totally client-less after all.

As if that wasn’t enough, more people have also begun noticing this blog. About a week ago, I received a message from Ana Santos, author of the novel and journal “Happy Even After” and resident solo parenting expert of Working Mom magazine. Here’s a screenshot of her message.

I was so thrilled! You see, I’ve been looking up to Ana since I first met her in 2010, when I won one of her contests over at SexandSensibilities.com. I read her column on Working Mom every month. So, having her not just find me online but also share one of my blog posts was simply amazing.

And as if that wasn’t already icing on the cake, I’ve been receiving messages too from other women (some I already know and some I’ve never met), who tell me that they find inspiration from my blended family story.

It seems like God is showing me that while He’s not yet giving me “the usual” clients, He’s still taking care of me and leading me to the direction He thinks is best for me. So, who am I to worry?

Just BREATHE.