Two Lines on the Stick (Around This Time Last Year)

I was wondering what to post today when I started to remember something very important that happened around this time last year. On July 7 of last year, I went to the office with an inkling that my life was about to change forever. You see, a couple of days before that, I missed my period and since I’m one of those lucky ones who get them at about the same time each month, I immediately suspected what I later found out to be true. Before I headed to the office, I detoured to the nearest drug store to buy an at-home pregnancy test then went to the office to use it.  It wasn’t really a surprise to me that two pink lines appeared on the stick. All at once, feelings of happiness mixed with worry started to surface. I have been wanting for a new baby and I wanted to give Kai his first one all the more. But I was worried that just like my last pregnancy, I might lose this one again. I was scared but hopeful.

Kai, was at that time, still at work but was about to get off from work in a couple of hours (he works nights). Earlier that day I already texted him that I’ll be taking the test as soon as I got to the office. So as soon as he got off work, he texted me and asked “So, are you having my baby?”. I replied yes! He was not really surprised either. Haha! I guess we just needed the confirmation to make it official. From then on, our lives as we knew it changed.

Fast track one year later and here we are with baby Ziggy. So many things have changed! For one thing, I no longer work at that office. I resigned soon after I found out I was pregnant. I had a miscarriage a few years back and I just knew that the work stress will affect the baby. I really did not want to risk it. So, I became a stay-at-home mom and for the first time, I was a pregnant stay-at-home (sometimes work-at-home) mom with no helpers  in the house. I didn’t actually think I’d survive all the chores let alone taking care of Kai and my two girls. But lo and behold I did! I even actually learned how to cook! That is one thing I never thought I’d actually like doing. Now, I’m even homeschooling.

More importantly, of course, we’re all just amazed with Ziggy and love spending our time with him. I cannot imagine life without my little man. This is the first time that I’m taking care of my child on my own. With Zoe and Ziya, I had full-time nannies because I was also working full-time. This time, I get to see all of my baby’s milestones. Everyday I am right there with him. So, yes, even though I sometimes hate to admit it, I have become what I never thought I would ever want to be – domesticated. But you know what? There are no regrets. I am loving it!